My Journy Begins- Inside Man Made hell pt2

Today was a blessed day; i woke up by the grace of God. Got a lil exercise, took a hot shower. I ended up gettin a lil more rest than i wanted but it allowed me the opportunity to dream; to meditate my goals into existence- God's Will. Yesterday, i came up with a couple concepts for UDS that i neglected to write down. It was more like a TV show or comic book idea, than a movie. It's like 1 giant computer that records everything, and moniters throu people's eye's. I forgot the plot & details because i didn't write it down- But as with all my dreams, if they're meant to be they will come back. Surprisingly though, i don't miss man's perception of freedom as much as i thought i would. I'm actually lookin forward to doin this bid. I honestly didn't feel so free in the free world. Had to work to hard just to maintain the false sense of freedom. I'm not into working so hard, physical; as i am with my mind I mean who wants to spend there lives as slaves confined to this world; working hard just to maintain? Nah, there's gotta be a better way! I believe that during this 2nd journey in this man made hell; i will find just that! A better way! So here i am in the Jacksonville “Duval” County Jail, convicted for the 2nd time. Strike 2!!! Graduated to my A letter. The things we put ourselves through? Yet again...  My journey begins!

Y I Commemorate the Late GREAT

Tupac's music, a other creative works; stimulated my conscious, in a way that only few rappers could. In such a way i can identify with his pains, simply becuz we shared the same struggles, and passions. i too watched my mother succumb to a crack addiction at an early age: causing me to move quite often to where although i held many talents, in sports, and music: it caused me to rebeled. I to was raised by the thugs, and drug dealers, taking early interest in the drug trade, not as an only option, but more so curiosity. So when I 1st heard Dear Momma: i felt as if he was speaking for me. Raised in the south (Miami) at the time, we didnt have a Wide range of music from up the north, and westcoast: i had to depend on his more commercial video hits: like Keep ur head up, Holla if u hear me. The compassion in which he rapped on Keep Ya Head: overwhelmed me: cause it was the same way i felt about the social ills, and present ghetto surroundings. Once i started writing in my early teens; i noticed that my lyric were more militant/ consciously direct, which was different for a rapper in the south. soon after i was exposed to 2pacalyspe, Strictly For My Niggas, and i can hear the rebellious, anger, and passion in every lyric. A voice so Potently Powerful! He rapped with so much ergency. With ni fear of reprimand. i started dj @ 13, so during that time period; His movie Juice, would initially spark my my musical interest. But low and behold- the character Bishop! Had me sold on his artistic side. I focused my scope & paid closer attention. Poetic Justice, court cases, and other drama, that fueled, the Me Against the World album; had us all bumpin Shed So Many Tears in the spring of 94. As he started the opening line with: I fear no man but God! To me it showed his strong believe belief. Then titled track, only displayed the intensity in his battle within. He spoke on the battles we all share at some point of our African American lives. Short time later, i would evenually: enter the criminal lifestyle-became a sinner... as he raps in Who do u Believe in... In summer of 96, the double Cd "All Eyes On Me" would drop, at a time where i was young with rising ghetto fame. Young black, and not a fear in the world! "Picture Me Rolling" For many of us, it was the soundtrack of our lives. We'd simply let the cd play and live it out! It spoke for me word for word: from, "Ambitions of a Rider", "Run the Streets" to Due to my to the countless struggles bought upon courteousy of the dope game; i ended up cacthing a case round the time "R U Still Down" dropped! Wonder if "Heaven Got A Ghetto", "Got Nothing To Lose". Alas, his untimely death. I can't begin to explain what type of impact it caused us fellow thugs, and devout fans. I will only say that will gave a 21 Gun salute: and had our own memorial and service by smoking, and drinking his signiture drank Hennessy, doing whatever the spirit led us to do. Our devestation only increased the anticipation for Machavelli album. On new music Tues: United in the name of Tupac! We congregated as a thug nation in the traps throught Jax. I listened intently to his every word, studied, and cross referenced with his earlier albums; when it hit me! Macavelli? the Art of War by Sun Tzu? Plan Plot Strategize? This man was borm to complete, his purpose in our existence. Like a saint that the have nots can relate to. Someone we can trust to help guide and carry us through. i ended up getting sentence to 7 yrs. as i compare it the seven day theory: how ironic? it was teen i read Make me wnna holla: and a Rebel without a Cause: the books reffered me to other literature read by the late great. And prior to my incarceration i had only heard of the Black Panthers: it was Pac who sparked my interest to read up on them. and other things... The more i read the same books, the more intumed to became awaking. So in short Thank u Tupac Amuri Shakur thank you being a testimony! a saint that we can trust, to help and carry us throu! Black Jesus! Therefore, i continue my vow, to represent ur name in style!