The Awakening Experience J.E #3

Journal #3 5-21-07

Had a very intriguing conversation- well it really wasn’t a conversation, cause I did most the talking; anyhow, my roommate and I had a discussion about everything from Politics to Real Estate, on down to relationships. During the course of our discussion; He told me that never met anyone in prison who spoke so eloquently. We’ll in his words; it was more like- “Man, you speak like someone that graduated from college”. While I did thank him for such a comment, being that he’s a graduate of Famu, and BCC; also an ex real estate broker and high school teacher himself. He said that he never had a conversation with a young black man/ convict at that; who spoke with such conviction. Not to sound overzealous but I do here that often; However, the comment struck a nerve because although to so speak proper and the range of my conversations vary; I told him that, I’d much rather considered someone who spoke with intellect, rather than being a mere college student; and although that’s what he may have meant; I explained the difference from me and a mere college student graduate. Afterwards he saw my point. I explained that I’m no greater than a stereotypical felon or your Thug. Other than the fact than I educated myself on the subjects I wanted to learn. But with that knowledge comes greater responsibility to exec ate, which I have yet to do. That’s added pressure that I live with, along with the scrutiny that I get from the still ignorant xcons; who may seem as if they really got to know my struggle, and once they do – They ultimately become admirers (silently) of course.
We spoke a bit more on other things. I explained to him what I believed to be my downfall that led me back to prison my 2nd trip. You want to know what that is? #1 lack of patience- can’t deny that fact. But ultimately my whole business plans was built around my high school friends, who had their own agenda’s due to personal obligations. So, that force me to regroup, cause in order to be successful in the entertainment business, you must hang or surround yourself when people that’s making similar moves.
I wasn’t, because I’m a new face in this city- And the entertainment market in Jax is relatively limited or lackluster. So, I have to either move to a metropolitan city or get up under some influential people who I can benefit from.
-Banditti the Don